shopping therapy;)

hubby's working during d weekend. so i'm having shopping therapy @ kk ;))

yesterday arrived @ kk about 6pm, as we'r leaving labuan @ 2pm. lots of waiting n plus d long journey of menumbok-kk.. also went 2 buy nadira's diapers, milk n scott's emulsion @ tg aru.. got 2 make her take it since she's being sick lately..

n 2day.. done lots of shopping;))
in d morning, my dad drove us to buy nadira's potty n 2-pcs set garments @ mothercare, kk times sq.. nadira's wet tissues n teats @ signature, karamunsing..

then in d evening, wit my cuzie, we bought nadira's trunki bag, baby cream, dora panties n my stretch mark cream @ little me, 1-borneo mall.. haha.. n finally hav a snack with cuzie, linda @ sushi king @ 1-b..

my catch of d day..



nadira's potty.. actually 1 2 buy a pink 1.. but finally decide on dis, so dat nadira's soon-2-b-sibling also can use it.



got nadira 2 sleeveless garments, as labuab was so hot dis days..



finally got dis 4 nadira.. no stock 4 d pink 1.. so juz bought d yellow bee trunki, @ least, if nadira got a 'lil bro, he can use it later;)



kind of trying dis buds' brand.. stretch mark cream 4 me n baby cream 4 nadira.. she got a very sensitive skin.. d mothercare lotion was not 100% suits her.. sometimes her fingers n toes get dry..

now thinking what should i prepare 1st.. home furnitures or d baby's list items.. still didn't d house key yet.. then, still no idea 'bout d baby's gender.. so both had 2 b postponed 1st.. hmm..

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october rain..

it's been almost my 21st wks 4 my 2nd pregnancy;).. went to d clinic last friday, but d doc said still can't c his gender..

nothing much happen in my life.. still felt tired day by day..

got d chance going 2 d beach last week ( after 'merajuk' with hubby since we've been staying @ home during d weekend ). it was nadira's 2nd time n now she was afraid 2 d water.. huhu.. last time, she was d 1 who's eager n excited playing with d water..



then hubby bought durian 4 me on our way back home. @ 1st he thought 1 durian is 4 rm30 ( it wrote 30 @ d label - which actually 3.0 meaning for its 3.0kg weight ).. he bought 2 durian n had 2 pay rm140 4 them.. huhu..



really satiesfied with d thick n sweet durian;))

n juz dis friday, my school had organized a premier camp 4 uniform unit.. 100 pupils involved which i was assigned 2 b 1 of d facilitator. i got d chance 2 try out d paintball, n it was my 1st;p















i'd miz'd all d target.. haha..

n 2day started 2 feel it again.. stress.. after being so tired 4 d camp, which end dis afternoon, d pressure came again.. wit nadira's attitude, hubby's.. really made my day.. money wasn't d problem now, but he's attitude making me stressful. he keeps blaming me if i get angry wit nadira. coz sometimes i shout n hit her a bit.. whenever i try 2 slow talk saying 'no' to her, most of d time she'll get 'merajuk ', started 2 throw things, kicking, hitting anything in her way.. hmm.. sometimes i dunno what i'd 2 do.. i really need a good supporter.. or shud i call a soulmate.. living near, but my heart wasn't near, it has been far away, as dis is d 2nd time i'm thinking 2 call it off.. but i guess need 2 wait 4 d 2nd baby 1st..

seriously i've keeping all dis long since me n nadira came 2 lbuan.. living here really makes me stress.. there's no prob @ work.. but my social life bcame worse, i'd prefer 2 b a quiet person.. but home sucks.. really uncomfortable ( 'rumah bujang' n only basic things in here ). n him.. still with his own life, his 'online game'.

really hope things will b better after we move into our new home.. i really miz'd d 'happy' me..

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alana nadira's 2nd birthday

late post of coz.. hehe.. but never too late.. during her 2nd bday, which suppose on d 23rd of sept, we didn't managed to celebrate it like last yr. well, no time to plan n rush 4 d journey from labuan to kk. so, juz bought nadira a cake n a present .. n celebrate it on d 24th..

though it was simple... but we'r so happy since nadira was turning 2.. n she'll b a big sis soon ;)) here r some pics during d simple celebration..

b4.. she's crying coz need more sleep after long day shopping n visiting her atok's house (alan's dad)
oreo ice cream cake (with belgium choc n vanilla cookie ice cream filling).. so yummy!!!
from mama n abah.. barbie's b-bright learning laptop;))








excited playing wit her new 'lappy' ;P

raya celebration @ my school

we're celebrating raya 4 d school @ 20.9.2011, which d event was quite simple but d parents came were totally out of numbered. haha.. so, d teachers hav to share with d pupils 4 d food.. luckily their food were a lot;))

here r some pics of d day.. n it's d 1st time i'm wearing make-up 2 work since i've been transfered to sk bukit kalam;)) got lots of compliment 4 dis;p












4 d 1st time i felt d close relationship with my cholics here.. well, b4 dis only dealing tru' classes, work.. but having brunch n singing 4 d raya karaoke was quite fun.. still missing d lok yuk environment;)) hope everything will b better esp nex yr.. as few cholics is applying 4 transfer, n mayb i'll b appointed 2 do more work 4 2011.. so will keep on bz again..

d baby's coming mid of february.. so better plan 2 do something 4 our new house during nov/dec (during school break). esp searching 4 d home furniture n appliances;)) can't wait..

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i hate dis feeling.. stress..

it's almost 3 months @ labuan. n my life getting stressful n miserable each day..

i'm getting weaker.. stressful.. really hate dis feeling.. my preggy life seems like a burden to me.. i knew it's wrong to feel dat way, but i'm getting weaker, tired n stress when thinking 2 hav 2 children.. even 1 was already tiring 4 me..

i did all house chores, juz only sometime hubby giving his help.. dunno y, thinking i can't never b a good wife n mom.. ;'(( with all d problems (yup, kind of money n marriage problems @ d moment).. sick n tired 4 all dis.. i missed my happy life.. now seems like everything is tiring 4 me..

a wife should hav a helping concern hubby, but not 4 me.. a wife should hav a leader hubby but not 4 me.. a wife should hav a financial supporter from hubby, but not 4 me.. a wife should hav a really loving hubby, but not 4 me..

how can i b a good wife n a good mom, when i dun hav d energy to take care of myself? i'm not blamming any1, but only i was d 1 trying hard n i'm d 1 who getting worse.. a marriage shud hav romantic, adventures sharing life.. but now only adventure dealing with work, house chores n parenting nadira..

i'm not asking a perfect life.. but i'm so tired of my life right now.. no friend to talk with, even nothing encourage me right now.. mayb juz active-cutie nadira;)

to all single ladies out there, get ready to get married n hav children.. it can b great n also stressful.. so b well prepared..

dunno when my life will b cheerful again..


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salam eidulfitri ;))

salam eidulfitri to all muslims.. hope it's not too late to wish it here;) been bz, but it's more on 'x larat'.. haha.. yup.. nadira was sick in dis 3 wks, from diarrhea, then fever then flu n cough.. huhu.. 3 wks of tiring n lack of sleep..

these r d few pics of dis yr raya.. sadly it's only d 2 of us.. hubby wasn't with us during 1st-5th day of raya. me n nadira went back to kk on d 23rd then went back to labuan on d 3rd.. glad we managed to bought d 'rm16' flight (lbuan-kk-lbuan).. haha.. so only rm170 4 both of us;))





nadira was being so 'manja' n fussy during raya.. well, she dun like too many people gather around her.. but it's raya, so it must be lots of ppl esp family.. haha.. so whenever she realizes there's ppl around, she'll close her eyes with her palms n sometimes hide her cute face on my chest.. haha;P dis will b d funniest story 2 b told 2 her when she's bigger;P

my princess was so shy ;P.. no la.. it's juz bcoz she haven't been around with many ppl in dis 2 moths. juz being with us, me n hubby;(.. really missed life @ kk. but, life must goes on.. n i need 2 spread my wings n b independent;))

will upload other raya pics later;))

boring life

it's been so long from my last blogging.. sincerely i'm bored here in labuan.. no frens, nothing much 2 do here.. life- work, home, bz parenting nadira, doing school work..

i've started my cooking ;p yup, just started n improving d taste;) ayam masak kicap, masak merah, masak kari mamak, mee hailam, nasi tomato. all cooked well except 4 d nasi tomato. haha;p

well, i'll do more cooking in d future. 4 now, with d limited kitchen appliance, still doing d simple cooking.

o ya.. below r latest pic of my lil' angel.. being so talk-active nowadays.. n she knows already how 2 'merajuk'.. haha.. run into d bedroom or kitchen, lay on d floor or knock her head @ d wall.. huhu.. thankfully she's not doing it all d time:p










about my pregnancy.. still haven't connected to him yet. well, it's still early.. juz 3 months. n guess wat, i haven't sign in @ d govt clinic yet. juz went 2 private clinic 4 scanning him n taking d blood test..alhamdulillah he's healthy inside my belly;))

hope everything will b okay.. oo ya.. happy fasting to all! n not forgetting eidul fitri is juz around d corner.. 15 days left ;p n i'm not prepared yet.. huhu..

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